Saturday, February 28, 2009

My thoughts

Ministry is hard... and tough ....

homeschooling is tough...

marriage takes work...

waking up to the fact you have a 14 yr old ALREADY is frightening...

doubts and fears can overtake you and try to drown you...

wanting to go back and relive those "having baby" days makes for emotional moments...

watching your precious Daddy fight the battle of cancer and hate being weak and sick...heartbreaking...

fighting flesh thoughts and doubts daily...having to remind myself of the gospel daily, over and over, and over...

yearning for eternity...

Thursday, February 26, 2009

Here is a post from Proverbs 31 woman and I thought it was a great reminder that all women...even Christian women need this reminder!!

"Flee from sexual immorality." 1 Corinthians 6:18 (NIV)

A few years ago, I watched a friend get tangled up in an emotional affair. She was a strong Christian woman who loved her family but the attraction to this other man seemed unavoidable. She tried to talk herself out of it but her heart played tricks on her mind, and the justifications for letting things continue down this path soon led her to a very dangerous place. She was becoming emotionally attached to this other man.In a moment of desperation and fear, she confided in me what was going on. As she described how she got pulled into this place, I found myself being challenged by the realization of how subtly this had happened.

She hadn't planned on being emotionally attracted to this other man. As a matter of fact, she'd always prided herself on being a woman of strong conviction and had scoffed at the idea of ever being tempted to have an affair.It starts off simple enough - his comment that you mull over one too many times, a conversation in which you find a surprising connection, a glance that lingers just a second too long, or one of a thousand other interactions that seem innocent yet aren't.

These are the dangerous seeds that can easily sprout into an emotional affair.Some think it is a safe way to enjoy the lure of being attracted to someone other than your spouse without crossing any lines.

But God boldly and plainly says in 1 Corinthians 6:18, "Flee from sexual immorality." God doesn't say walk away from sexual immorality. No, He says to flee as if your very life is at stake! The time to prevent an emotional affair is before it ever starts. For me to rest on my spiritual laurels and think that it could never happen to me, made me a prideful, open target for Satan.

Jesus warned his disciples in Matthew 26:41,"Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the body is weak." The Life Application NIV Bible commentary says, "Jesus used Peter's drowsiness to warn him about the kinds of temptation he would soon face. The way to overcome temptation is to keep watch and pray. Watching means being aware of the possibilities of temptation, sensitive to the subtleties, spiritually equipped to fight it."

Watching: I now realize that I need to be aware that I am just as prone to this temptation as anyone. One of the best ways to be watchful is to be praying with and for my husband. We need to be open and honest about meeting each other's needs and investing wisely in our marriage. If we get into a rough place, we need to be willing to get help. I love the quote, "If you are busy rowing the boat, you won't have time to rock it." The more my husband and I are taking care of each other, the less attractive temptations will seem.

Sensitive to the Subtleties: I will have to be honest with myself that temptations do exist. When another man says or does something I wish my husband would say or do and doesn't, it can make me lessen my husband in my heart and build up this other man. This is a seed of poison. If watered and fed, this seed will sprout and spread and devastate. Seeds seem so small until you realize that within them they contain the potential to become huge. So, I will be steadfast to keep the fertile ground of my heart pure.

Spiritually Equipped: Philippians 4:8 reminds us, "Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things" (NIV). I must park my mind with the truth and the truth is I am married to an amazing man. He is not perfect and sometimes our marriage can be hard, but I made a commitment to Him in a covenant before God and there are no Biblical reasons in our marriage why we should ever part.

Therefore, I've made the decision not to part - in big ways or small.My friend did the wisest but hardest thing she could have done in telling me about her emotional affair. Not only did it help her to see she needed to flee and have someone else hold her accountable, but it also made me aware and alert to the dangers lurking in any kind of unhealthy emotional connection with another man.

Dear Lord, may I forever treasure my marriage and see it worthy to be protected. Help me to be a courageous woman who absolutely flees from any and every situation where there is even a hint of danger. In Jesus' Name, Amen

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Well, my hubby surprised me on Saturday night with a little party. It was supposed to be some of our MC leaders coming over to watch supercross and hang out. But when I looked up from the TV, my hubby was coming with a cake! he hasn't ever done that before!! What a surprise! Then a few minutes later an old friend showed up to surprise me! What fun!! Thanks Keith, I enjoyed my surprise. The cake was double chocolate fudge cake...mmm!

Can't wait to see Jaclyn and Zack's little baby boy. He is being delivered by C-section today. (He is supposed to be over 9 1/2 lbs.)

Dad is still recovering from his infections and abscess, taking IV antibiotics 3x/daily. Mom is pretty exhausted these days from around the clock care.

Elijah turns 6 next week, and I can't believe it!

(the merrygoround is not even moving!)

Extra prayers this week for Keith as he is really busy...extra meetings for City watch, sermon prep, leading an MC group and the regular stuff as well.

Saturday, February 21, 2009

Reflections from a 40 yr old!

What a busy week it has been...Daddy came home from the hospital on Wednesday night...late, through the rough weather in Atlanta. The kids and I went over earlier in the day and cleaned the house for Mom....well, the kids did the outside work and Grandmommy and I worked inside. (I'd rather be outdoors!)
Daddy is really weak, fighting infection and all...he receives IV antibiotics every 8 hours which Mom has to do, on top of everything else. She is a trooper! Dad is loving her giving him baths, washing his hair, I even helped him shave yesterday.
At 8am yesterday, I went to the physical therapist to get some help for my back. The looonngg trip to Raleigh did a number on it and I needed help getting back to normal. Thank you Mike!!

I am really enjoying running these days. I actually look forward to it! I feel so much better after I am done. I can't wait to do a few 5K's this year.

Keith took me out last night for my birthday. We went to Wild Wing for the first time and it was great. We met a friend there and he treated us to dinner. I had such a good time laughing and hanging out with Keith and Scott. I guess since Keith didn't pay for the date, he still owes me one!!
Today is the big 40 day...I really don't care about turning 40, I do love birthdays though!!

Tonight is SUPERCROSS in at 7:30!! We'll be watching!

5 things I love:
1) I LOVE dates with my hubby!!
2) I LOVE New City gatherings!
3) I LOVE laughing with Keith!
4) I LOVE going to the beach with my family!
5) I LOVE flowers and gardening!!

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

We are still praying for Daddy...he is still in Atlanta in the hospital. He will have a colonoscopy on Wed. to rule out colon cancer, because of a bleeding issue. He still is running a low fever. The abscess is draining...good news. Mom has a broken tooth that is causing her face to swell, she did get antibiotics started yesterday...bless her heart, what more can she handle?! See why I ask for your continued prayers? She is the first to say, the only way she makes it each day is through answered prayer and God's grace.

It's tougher than I every imagined to watch my parents go through so much.

Friday, February 13, 2009

Click on this link to listen to an interview of Mark Driscoll with D.L. Hughley, it is short, so take the time to watch if you can!! You can read the blog first on this site and then at the bottom of the page you will see the interview. Let me know what you think!

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Wow, is it already Thursday night? It seems like I just posted yesterday!

Wanted to share a couple of things:

1) a funny: Elijah has been very concerned about something lately...he has come up to me and said," Momma, I'm a little worried about my first kiss when I get married." He has told Keith, "Daddy, I need to find someone to give me a little practice with my first kiss" and just yesterday, he told me, "Momma, I'm a little I have to kiss in front of all those people?" what a hoot!

2) Daddy is in the hospital with an abscess at the site of one of the places they did the chemo embolization on his liver. He has had a constant fever that tops 104 and just doesn't go down below 102. He hurts and is pretty weak. Mom is really tired after being up most nights with him as well. But now that he is getting treatment for it, hopefully he will make a speedy recovery.

3) I have been listening to a sermon series on Song of Solomon by Mark Driscoll and have really learned alot. There are some baptist (SBC) people who are having a fit over what is being said in the pulpit. However, I think it is about time that a pastor taught on intimacy within marriage. Why should we only hear the perverted version by society?
Anyway, I just wanted to share something that has inspired me and encouraged me to love my husband the way God desires me to. I think we sometimes get so caught up in schedules, routines and kids that we forget our spouses. Remember when you would first see your hubby and love all over him, just kissing and enjoying being loved on. Remember how important planning dates were and "whispering sweet nothing" to them.?
I think we can grow stale in our relationship and just take it all for granted. We allow everything else to consume us and don't take time like we once did to show we care.
Well, we women like to know we are cared for, we like compliments and kisses...and I know our husbands do to. They like to know we love them more than we love our kids. I think are sometimes okay to pour our heart and soul into being mothers and forget that we were first a wife (in most cases:)).
I write this to encourage you and maybe challenge you. Maybe you are not like me and you are thinking, ("what a shame, Amy", "how could you neglect your hubby?"). I have always loved Keith, but I am striving to love him more. I want to be playing offense and not always defense. I want to reassure him that he is my beloved. To let him know I think he is hot, encourage him as he works out (and is losing more weight than me). I want him to know that he is a treasure, a gift from God and that I am loving him more each day. It is fun and it makes me happy. I know it makes him happy. I want him to desire to hurry home and be with me, in this safe haven called home where he is treasured and loved.
I know I will mess up, but I will continue to fill my mind with scripture and truth, pray for Keith, for our marriage to grow , for God to strengthen it everyday.

Monday, February 9, 2009

Wow, what a week! Keith and I were in Raleigh NC from Tuesday until Saturday for an Acts 29 church Boot Camp where we were blessed to be assessors this year. We had such fun, learned so much, made new friends in the church planter world and drove over 988 miles!

Jennifer and Patrick rode with us, and Kelli and Todd came as well. Patrick is our Executive pastor ( as soon as he is through the elder process) and this conference was expecially beneficial to him. Todd and Kelli caught the vision of Acts 29 planters and a flame was fanned within them to join up with New City and see where God takes them! My heart is so full from so much and I really don't know how to share it.

Keith and I were refreshed, renewed and worn out! ha,ha It was so awesome spending time with the 2 couples who came with us, but we also saw old friends, and made new ones. It is great to share time with fellow church planting couples and also meet and pray with new , up and coming planters/wives. I saw much humility among the pastors and loved, loved the promotion of family and the gospel!
Snowing our first night in Raleigh

Me, Jennifer and John Fooshee deciding where to eat our first night there...we decided on Irish pub. (lamb stew, shepherds pie, and the most delicious salad ever!)
Our view from the room watching the snow come down.

Kelli (Keith's lil' sis) and Todd.
Leonce, Breanna and Eden Crump. An up and coming church planter family in Atlanta. This family has such passion for the gospel to explode in Atlanta! You can't tell from the pic, but this guy played in NFL and he is HUGE!
The Leach family from Florida and Jason from GA (church planters)
Nerida and Will Henderson going to plant in Australia!
Leslie Bond from NC...her husband did our assessment in 2007. She is a pastors wife, homeschooling Mom and mother of 3...a woman full of wisdom.
Keith and friends at the assessors appreciation dinner on Thursday night. This church was so beautiful!
I stood in the small balcony and took this picture. This is a really old chapel, but it is really cool! This was a fun, enjoyable evening with church planters from all across the southeast. We are SO blessed to be a part of Acts 29 network!
Hey...if there is anyone still out there reading this, let me know. If not, I am shutting down!

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Well, Keith and I are gonna have some couple time for the next few days...whoohoo!

New City welcomes Tucker Jamison Versteeg to its membership!! Congratulations Sarah and Tyler on a healthy baby boy!! They waited until the birth to find out and it was fun guessing...I guessed a girl. I should have known better!

Sarah Kate is doing so much better! Thank you for your prayers! She is off the vent, out of sedation and being held by Mom again. They are moving to a regular room and may go home by this weekend. This has been a huge answer to prayers. She was one very sick little girl!! Praise the Lord!!!!!!!!!!!!

The kids and I watched the History channel yesterday and were very intrigued by the tattoo history. So, the older 2 spent the afternoon coloring tattoos all over the very willing Elijah. I'm tellin' ya, the boy has a thing for writing on his body.!

Daddy celebrated his 68th birthday by having a procedure in Atlanta done yesterday. He will hopefully come home today. He had some type of higher dose chemo implanted directly into the liver...long name that I can't remember.